What a difference a week makes! A week ago I was a real basket case. When I got here at 26 weeks, I so hoped we'd make it to 32 weeks. My daughter was a 32-weeker, and while not fun, at least we had some idea what to expect and she's fine now. But as I approached that mark just after completing 5 full weeks here. I was not at all relieved or happy. In fact I hit a real low point in my stay here. I have lots of ideas why, and I won't go into all of them, but I think the biggest was just that after 5 weeks being here was really getting to me. So, not only is 32 weeks still pretty darn early, but if I made it all the way to my previously scheduled c-section at 38 weeks (6 weeks away), I was still on the uphill climb in terms of the duration of my stay. By last weekend I was feeling better. And somehow 33 weeks feels pretty good right now. I'm a full week past the point when my daughter was born and if I'm lucky enough to make it to 38 weeks that means 6 1/2 weeks down and only 5 to go.
Don't get me wrong, I don't think my irritability will disappear. It's hard to be here and I am grumpier than normal and I'll probaby do some venting here. But I'm in a much, much better place than I was a week ago and despite my grumbling, I haven't been mean or yelled at anybody yet. ;)
In non hospital news. Today I ordered organic waterproof crib pads to go on the new organic crib mattress we recently ordered. I also ordered some new bath towels for my daughter, since she still uses the baby towels we got when she was born. I'm hoping she won't mind giving them up with the new pick towels I got that have her name on them. Next up is ordering the carpet for the nursery and the wall mural. I may not be home to get everything set up, but thanks to the Internet I can at least do the shopping! :)