Today is day 43, so I'm starting my 7th week in here. I'm grateful to have made it this far, and I truly hope that this baby stays in for a few more weeks, but I am going crazy in here! I'm bored and alone almost all of the time. While nothing has been happening medically, for some reason, as the days pass my anxiety level goes up and up. Every twinge scares me and I'm having a hard time keeping negative thoughts out of my head. I'm also both incredibly disappointed and angry with a couple of my friends. I truly don't expect the world to stop because of my situation and I really don't expect to get many visitors as most of my friends have children and full-time jobs and nobody lives very near the hospital. But I've had visits, phone calls, and emails from friends that I usually see or talk to only infrequently, while a couple of women whom I would have described as among my closest friends, women whom I have lunch with and generally email and talk to pretty regularly, I have barely heard from at all. Both made plans to come visit and then didn't even bother to call or email to say they weren't coming -- and never called or emailed after the fact either. As I said, I don't expect alot of visits, but if someone tells me they're coming tomorrow, I think it's pretty damn rude to just not show up! I really don't know if I'm more sad or angry about it. Vent over.
On the bright side, my mom is coming back up tomorrow. She'll be here for 2 days and then is taking my daughter back home with her for spring break. I'll miss seeing my little Ladybug next week, but I know she's going to have a great time and it'll be a great break for my husband.
In other news, starting today I now get NSTs everyday. So far they've all looked good. My blood pressure is still good. I've only gained about 2 pounds since I got here, but they don't seem at all concerned by that. The only time I have any contractions is when my bladder is full, so no big deal.
Thats all for now. I'll try to update a little more frequently. And sorry I've been lousy about returning comments, but I do appreciate everyone's comments, concerns, and good wishes. Thanks.