Irritability

So, I'm blaming my recent irritability on the clo.mid. My husband seems to be buying this even though I been pretty darn irritable for the better part of a year now. I realized the other day that next month will be the 1-year anniversary of starting our first IVF cycle. In the past 13 months I've been put under anesthesia 5 times. I’ve had an HSG and laparoscopic surgery. I’ve undergone 3 IVF cycles and 1 D&C. I was soooo hopeful a year ago. We’d found the problem and we had every hope that IVF would help us overcome it. Looking back it seems that I was so naive. I guess I can’t really say that I have no hope left; if I didn’t I don’t think I’d still be willing to go through all this. But the pessimism has started to settle and, most of all, I’m exhausted. Tonight I take the last two clo.mid and tomorrow I’ll start the Brav.elle & Meno.pur injections. I won’t know until my office visit on Friday how I’m responding to any of this. I love NOT having blood drawn and ultrasounds every day, but there was something comforting in being told every morning that “things look good.”