Thursday, June 21, 2007

Tick Tock

My pregnancy test is in one week. Thanks to the tempest at work, I haven't been dwelling on it quite as much as with my past cycles. Thankfully, this weekend will be busy too. Friday afternoon is my daughter's graduation from daycare (yes they actually have little caps and gowns for them!). Saturday we're attending a birthday party and after that dinner with some good friends. That means Sunday will be full of errands and cleaning. But I'm fully aware that as Thursday approaches I'm going to turn into a nervous, emotional wreck. I really don't know what I'll do if I get a BFN again. And just thinking that we might get such news on my husband's birthday breaks my heart.

Here's the odd thing. Lately it seems as though a number of bloggers have posted about having lost hope. As I read those posts, I thought how sad that seemed and until the last couple of days I wouldn't have described myself as having lost hope. But I've just realized that, in fact, I don't feel very hopeful about this cycle. Yet, at the same time, I know I'll be devastated if this doesn't work. Which, I suppose, means that somewhere deep down there must be some hope left, but I'm sure not feeling it right now.

Who but an IF would be praying for sore boobs and nausea???



olivegirl said...

We are so in the same boat! I'm hopeful today, but yesterday was a different story, and tomorrow will be different again. At least it's the weekend and I can keep myself busy in the garden!

I'll keep checking on you over the next week. My beta is next Friday. But I'll probably break down on Wednesday...I got a positive two days before my beta last time.

Anonymous said...

don't let my moodiness put you off holding onto some hope!

I will be peeing on my stick tomorrow (12dpo), I wont do it today in case its too early but sore boobs and nausea, I'd love some too but apparently Aurelia says its too early for that too, so there's my glimmer shining through once again :)


Dianne/Flutter said...

Hoping for you :).

Leah said...

Yeah, it's the only time that a real friend would say "I hope you are in (boob) pain, and that you throw up everything you try to eat." Sounds like I'm wishing some sort of horrible curse on you, when in fact I'm wishing for you the happiest thing in the world.

I will be desperately hoping for a truly wonderful bday present for you husband!

CAM said... feel sore boobs and throw up! Wouldn't that be great?! Hope Thursday is a "positive" day!!

chicklet said...

Those kinds of stupid symptoms I wish for every month - what a weird thing to wish for. Good luck waiting out your last few days!

KarenO said...

I'll be back to come and check up on your result next week, will be praying that is super news this time around ;)

Carrie said...

It is a special type of torture, the waiting and wondering. I so hope that it'll all turn out so well for you.
May the days fly by for you.

Hez said...

Hope you're doing well in the 2WW. Fingers crossed.

Amy said...

It is a roller coaster that is just no fun. But if it leads to nausea and puking, it will be worth it.

I'm new to your blog but I am so happy to find another Secondary IF gal out there! My son just turned four.

Wishing your husband the best birthday ever and I will be checking in.