Friday, June 6, 2008
Fear, Nerves, and Temptation
So if I counted the days correctly (and I'm not actually sure I did) I'm now 10dp5dt (or 10 days past a 5 day transfer). Until last night I was feeling relatively good about things. In fact, if I'm entirely honest with myself I'll admit that I've been more worried about another miscarriage than the results of the beta, which is scheduled for Monday. But something changed since last night and I'm now terrified that this didn't work at all. I'm a nervous wreck today and for the first time ever I'm feeling really tempted to POAS before the beta. But that kind of scares me too, I don't want to do it too early but I also worry about getting a positive and then finding out it's another chemical. I almost drove to the grocery store after dropping my daughter off at school this morning to pick up some tests, but I didn't. Not sure I'll be able to restrain myself on the way home from accupuncture later on. So, here's my question for anyone who might be visiting: If you were going to POAS, when would you do it?